Day Two - Psalm 17

December 17th

With day 1 under my belt, I strive on towards Day Two ;) Two days in a row....and I can already notice a LITTLE more patience, a LITTLE more wisdom...God is so faithful to us. Today I had to take the kiddos to the doctor by myself, so I had to really rely on HIS patience and just let some things GO that I would have held onto and in all honesty - made things worse. I think I do that sometimes - try to control my kids behaviors and make everything worse - BLAH what a learning time in my life.

Psalm 17
David writes this song after being saved from all his enemies and Saul. It is a prayer to God with an acknowledgment that He will answer the pure in heart -

The thing that really struck me about this prayer is that despite all that David had gone though, he still says "I am praying because I know you will answer me..." I know there are so many times in my own life when I go through a rough patch and start wondering if HE is really even there. Does he even listen to my "cry for help?" Is he even "paying attention to my prayers?" I start questioning because the answers are not quick enough or the answers that I think they should be. I have been praying this one prayer for over FIVE years now - the one about giving me more patience and making me more "stable" in my emotions - but NOTHING seems to come of it. Sure, I will have days when I think - OK you have answered my LONG awaited prayer request - but then the next second there goes the hormones and things are out of wack again. I am still not sure what to think of that specific prayer request - but I guess I just need to rest assured that He is listening - He does care - and He will answer in HIS time. Boy is that hard when I am a "here and now" kinda person....