Blogging Resolution Day 1

Ok....so here it is.

I have decided to have a blog resolution. I love reading people's blogs and I really do love blogging myself. I have not been great at being consistent and so forth have not been able to get my readers built up...;)

I know so many of you out there want to hear from a mother of two kids who loves Jesus and her husband...and so I won't deny you the pleasure of reading said blog any longer. I have resolved to become a .... CONSISTENT BLOGGER.

I have no clue what this will look like, however, and because of this highly doubt myself when I say I want to become consistent. I think I can I think I can I think I can - said the little blue engine!

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I think that my resolution should start off realistic, yet challenging....say...blogging once a week.

I can do once a week for crying out loud! I freaking surf Facebook for more than that a week - less Facebook more blogging! So, here we go....once a week hearing from a mother of two, husband to one and follower of a God who shows me unfailing love and forgiveness...who wouldn't want to read THAT blog ;)

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As most of you know my dear husband is deployed. Christmas was sad, Thanksgiving was sad and most nights when I am in bed alone are sad. I miss him being around the house. I miss him making eggs on Saturday morning. I miss his weird sense of humor and the way he tries to make me smile when I am in a grumpy mood even though i HATE that! Arg, I miss him....

However....I do have something now that I didn't have before giving my life to Jesus. I have hope. I have peace. I have someone closer to me than anybody on Earth ever will be telling me that He loves me. I have a leader of my life who leads me beside still waters. I have a King who never rules harshly. I have love. I have an assurance that this life is not the end all be all, and that the best is yet to come.

Even in the midst of "sad" I have all this. You see Jesus never said that he came to take all the troubles from the world. He came to wash us clean of our sins and give us the holy spirit which gives us guidance in this crazy world. so that when we DO go through troubles we have a HOPE, PEACE and ASSURANCE that is supernatural. It is indescribable...I have never felt or experienced anything like it. It is literally like all the weight has been lifted off my shoulders and I can breath. And when I try to once again put back on the heaviness of this life, I am gently reminded by a whisper that "all is well, I've got this, let me carry this, I never created you to carry this, please let me...." I surrender my life and I gain it back - 100% better than what I gave up....wierd....because that is certainly not the world's economy - but is is certainly God's economy...

So as I drift off to sleep tonight - I am hopeful for tomorrow - a little sad - but at complete peace...and boy am I thankful for that...SO thankful...

Until next week,

Nic

P.S. I am starting a three week detox - I have been off caffine for 48 hours and the headachs are JUST starting to go away....thought I was going to DIE at first though. I will keep you posted on THAT process to...the first week is nothing but veggies fruits and shakes....goodbye doritos!